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Bulimia

Pencil

15″x20″

© Cindy Oh

© Cindy Oh,
Adobe Illustrator

You Don’t Know Me

oil paint
14″x19″

Don’t get close to me. Don’t get near me.
Stay far away, because nothing good comes from
being dependent on someone.
Don’t act like you know me.
Don’t say things that you know nothing about.

I drew this picture actually, out of a photograph that Jenny, my friend, took last year. It was around March, and I was very new to my school. I had just been through a lot of difficulties just the previous months, and I was still ‘closed up’ in my mind. I didn’t want anyone close to me, because I was insecure of myself, of my body, of my mind. Have you ever had that kind of experience? Where you just don’t want to get close to someone in fear of being too attached to that person. Or, when you don’t have the guts to tell anyone your true feelings. To make the long story short, I was extremely scared. Scared out of my wits. Scared because I didn’t know if I would be accepted by anyone in my life, scared that I wasn’t ‘fit’ enough to be in a group–especially in a new environment like Korea. But most of all, I was scared of myself, because I knew I was the worst enemy of myself. I don’t know if that makes sense. Maybe this has some kind of psychology in it–but anyway, these experiences, my confused feelings, the need to identify my problems–were the reason I got interested in psychology. I wasn’t sure, but I believed that learning about the mind and the brain might give me some kind of clue to the crazy bundle of spit-firing neurons in my head.

But I still cannot find the answer to my insecurity.

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Dementia
Mixed Media
15″x20″

My expression of anger.
Aggression.
Craziness.
Lost Identity.

I drew this in the spring of 2005, I think. It was pretty long time ago–but I remember one thing for sure. I took out a piece of drawing paper, and grabbed a bunch of magazines. I didn’t think nor did I plan about this piece of work. I just cut shapes, pictures, and anything that corresponded with my mood–anger. And angry it came out to be. Sad, distorted, insane–whatever I was feeling at the moment, the frustration of life–came out on this piece. I cannot describe how I am feeling in words. I just can express it in drawing. I think everyone has different talents that they are designated for when they are born. I just hate the fact that schools assume that students should be graded based on the basic skills (writing, math, reading, science, and whatnot). If they asked me to do all of this in a form of art, I would think it would be quite easier than right now.

By Cindy Oh

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Title: Involuntary Metamorphosis

Media: Acrylic & Gouache

Size: 15″x 20″

I am involuntarily morphing into something that I don’t want to be.
I am involuntarily becoming a robotic, non-thinking animal.

Someone please give a chance to change.

Someone, please, help me escape this slow, painful death.

Painting by Cindy Oh

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Two Faces, Two minds
March 2007.
Acrylics

I drew this around March 2007. I was working on my AP Art pieces, and my theme was my life itself–and this piece really spoke to me after I finished it.

I don’t want to explain everything in the piece because that is not the point of a painting. I hope you get something out of this, the message that I am trying to tell you, without words or sounds.

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